Thoughts about Worry and Anxiety

Be positive, and then the universe will follow.  

Just like what happened to me yesterday. It’s like there is no hope already, because I had to do lots of things. Like completing requirements; rush through deadlines and hearing a bad news.  It really stressed me out and it’s like the end of the world for me. But it made me think that maybe I’m just worrying to much. That possibly I’m over thinking and perhaps that is why I ended up doing nothing. So I paused for a while, and then slowly returning back to my senses.  At that moment it pop into my head that maybe this is another opportunity for me to grow. That the pressure and anxiety that I feel right now, is an obstacle and if I pass this, probably I will move on to the next level. So, I persevered and move forward like the wind. I did not entertain all the negative thoughts in my head instead I focused on doing and accomplishing all the things that are needed to be done.

Luckily for me, the enlightenment came quickly. And now, I’m writing this piece because everything went out just fine.

So again, because of what happened, I’m going to say this…

Be positive, and then the universe will follow.

Mental Toughness

What is mental toughness? Well, if you are going to search it on the internet, you will stumble upon on different kinds of definition. But for me, when you talk about mental toughness, this is the ability to endure and persevere during high pressure situations in order to perform at maximum potential.

Having this kind of ability enables the individual to overcome life’s obstacles. Maybe you are wondering right now how a person acquires this kind of ability. If you’re going to ask me, probably I will say that you need to embrace difficulties that may come into your way.  Though it’s not easy but trust me, it will benefit you in the end. Because what does not kill you makes you stronger.

Anyway, some of us are afraid to face difficult situations, and usually end up avoiding the problem or denying it. That is why some of us also do not succeed in life. So, it is really a must for us to be mentally tough, not just for us to succeed but also in order to maintain our sanity. Life’s pressure can break you if you are not tough enough.

I wrote this topic because early this morning, I realized how mentally tough I am. That my mental toughness is very strong, I came to this realization because early this morning I had to face a very challenging obstacle.  That is, I had to take care of my grandmother that is demented. It’s not a new thing to me, since I started taking care of her 2 years ago but the challenging part here is that I really need to clean her up early in the morning because there is a poop in her diaper. After cleaning the poop, I bathed her. Then after, I had to hand washed her clothes (we don’t have a washing machine that’s why I need to do it manually.)  Prior to that, last night I had to go out at around 3am in the morning to close the main switch of the water pipe because one of our water pipes got broke.  I also changed her diaper that night because it has a poop in it.

It was a very tiring day you know, and it made me realize that I’ve been doing this already for almost 2 years (taking care of my grandmother while studying). So, it really made me think how mentally tough I am. Maybe GOD purposely gave me this kind of endurance in order for me to keep my sanity.

I know someday all of this will pay off, and I think GOD has a better plan. I think GOD purposely gave me these challenges in order for me to be mentally tough and emotionally tough as well.

So, for you that is reading this… Be Strong! Be mentally tough! Endure the pain and don’t give up on life!

To be and to last.

The Path of Healing

Today was the second session that I joined the expressive arts therapy.  The first thing we did was that we gathered around and formed a circle, then begun sharing experiences, realization and ideas. At first it was a bit awkward because I am not use to this kind of activity. As everyone begins to share their thoughts, I felt this some sort of happiness inside me, because the things that they shared are so heartwarming. Well, I’m not going to tell you everything because it will not fit into this blog.  I will just make a list of my favorites.

1. A very caring woman, who shared that her hair stylist died.  When you listen to her, you can really sense the innocence and purity of her heart. I felt a sense of awe while listening to her story.

2. A mother (but I think she’s a grandmother already) that has the heart and kindness of “Mama Mary”. I felt this kind feeling of belongingness and comfort while listening to her.

3. A very loving father that is concerned about the welfare of his daughter. Because according to him, his daughter went out with a guy friend. Well, maybe this is what we call a father’s instinct. For me, her daughter is very lucky because nowadays it’s rare to see fathers like him. I salute you for that Mr. English guy (by the way he is a foreigner and I think his English)

4. Last but not the least is a She-Male that is full of life and happiness. He lightens up the room when he enters. I believe that this person has endured a lot of suffering and pain that is why he is full of life at present. I want to journey the path of healing with this person around.

After the sharing, we did a lot of activities like; Eye to eye contact for 30mins, Eye to eye contact while dancing and the best part was the therapeutic dance. You will be asked to dance with your own style but the twist here is that the lights are off. So, by turning the lights off, you can really express yourself through dancing and believe me, it was very awesome! The music also was really nice; it was like a mix of everything with a tribal touch.

To sum it up all, I really enjoyed everything that happened….Everything we did in the Expressive Arts Therapy! It was mind blowing and it was priceless.

To be and to last.

Go out and enjoy life

Today has been a long journey, my friends and I crossed the sea just to watch a movie and eat pancit canton. It was a bit tiring because we did not go home after, since we still attended a expressive arts therapy session. The destination was not the fun part but the journey itself. We talked and discovered lots of things.  I will not go on to details about the things that happened because it’s just too many to mention. I will discuss the things that I think is beneficial for me.

One of the learning’s that I acquired was the experience of meeting a diverse group of individuals. Most of them shared different kinds of experiences that are beneficial considering that most of them are older than me. One of the things that I’ve learned is that when you listened you learn, but when you listen and write, you learn more; however when you listen and write plus when you talked about it, you learn the most. Pretty interesting, isn’t it? I know some of you are familiar with this already but this is the first time that I encountered this kind of idea. Another thing is that, the one who handled the therapy was the student of the son of the famous psychologist Carl Rogers. No wonder the one who handled the therapy was so good.

To sum it all, I learned a lot. From their experiences, ideas, wisdom and different kinds of personality that helped broaden my horizon and I am very grateful for this experience.

 To be and to last.

Change of Heart

Today, I decided to go to church and surrender myself to GOD. Because early this morning it made me think that maybe it's time to change. I don’t know why it came into my mind but I just decided to do it. After my usual routine I immediately took a bath and went to church. When I was setting in the church while waiting for the mass to start, it made me realize about lots of things. Like for example, all the blessings that I received this year. It’s pretty amazing because before I decided to change and went to church, I was really thinking that this year is not good for me because of all the things that did not go well into my life. Maybe GOD purposely enlightened my mind so that I will realize that despite all the bad things that happened, I am still lucky because I’m live. There is no such thing as permanent in this world as they say, that’s why it’s better not to drown yourself on thinking about the problems that you have, because as the famous quote says “This too shall pass”. Life must go on.

Anyway, when I was waiting for the mass to start, I saw a young guy that has a down syndrome. At first, it really did not surprise me because I had my internships in a special school that has a bunch of Down syndrome students. Going back to the young guy, I was pretty amazed because it seems that he is the only one who went to church.  I observed that the young guy is praying whole heartedly. You can really see on his gestures the sincerity of his prayer. It made me think about my students in the school where I had my internship because one of my learning’s there is the purity and honesty of a special child.  They really are a perfect example of “what you see is what you get”.

As the mass was about to start and people are starting come along, it seems that most of the people don’t want to set beside the young guy. Its like, they are afraid. It really pains me seeing people avoiding him. Well, there is nothing I can do about it. So what I did, I just prayed whole heartedly just like the young guy is doing. Seeing that young guy made me think that I’m still lucky. That my problems will still just pass by.

To be and to last.

Blessing in disguise

This is the first time that I'm going to write a blog. Mainly because early this morning, I applied for a writer position in a publishing company and was not accepted. So because of this incident, it made me think that maybe  I'm too confident with my English skills. That I'm good with speaking and maybe I'm also good in writing.

I admit. The failure was frustrating on my part because I was expecting that I will be hired because of my over-confidence. Well, maybe this is a sign from GOD that I'm to cocky when it comes to my English skills. That I still need to work hard to improve my grammar.

This experience opened my eyes.  It fueled my desire to practice!. Actually, that is why I made this blog. Because this blog will be my training ground. And you know what? I downloaded a grammar checker. Hehehe...

Anyway, If you are going to stumble on this blog. Please bare with me and the grammar because I'm still learning.

To be and to last.